To choose or To be chosen?!

Dear readers,

Our life had served us to make a decision in whatever we do. The choices or decisions we make will determine our future. 😘 However, some choice will lead to a failure in life. Or it will lead to an unhappy forever after. 😪 Haha kind of negativity here! I cannot brain myself sometimes when I have to make a decision. It really makes my heart uncomfortable and make me think all the times. 😭

Sometimes, ovethinking about something will make you decide on something unimportant. But, as human beings and especially girls, women or lady, we loved to think hard. Very hard! 😂 It's not we think critically just hard. We bring the problem everywhere. The smallest problem will lead to big problem. A problem can be solved in one day, we bring and make it harder to decide. 😝 That is people called girls. 😣

This problem which I face now it's kind a choices I have to make. To stay or to leave. 😢 A mixed feeling of mine which I couldn't handle it. I love the current one but I have to move if I look for an advancement. The upscalling skills and for a better future. ☺ But if I left, I might not be able to find the colleques that I had now. The one who I can share opinions and work together as if nothing is impossible when we are together. 😄

Now, I have to decide. No excuse should be given but a solution. 😣 I will tell you where my future path will lead me to. 😉 Stay tuned okay?.

Love,
The writer.

Chances! Fated! Destiny!

Dear readers,

Previously, I had written about I was laid off as the company downsized. However, there is always a rainbow after rain. 💖 God know what is the best for me. I didn't know whether I will get or not but for surely I will work until I finally get it. 💪

This is my chance to prove to my former boss that I can be with a better company. A company who will treasure their employee very much. 😃 I got three called for an interview and all are coming from Jobstreets. Some people said this web didn't help them very much. However, this web really do help me and thank you so much for giving me a better opportunity to be even better. 👍

When you got called for various types of industries, it means you have a plenty of choice and you can choose which is the best for you. You may choose which pay you the highest or you may choose which is the best for your personality. Whatever your choice is, it will become your responsibilities. 😇 Don't worry too much because everything can be done. Think simple and you will get through all the challengers you will face. 😉

I currently have taken Master in Foodservice Management at UiTM. 😎 The best for me is to stay in the Food & Beverage industries as it is par with my current studies. However, I am thinking to venture into another industries to learn and understand more about various industries and how did the account work for them. What are you study will become a bonus for you but it doesn't mean you have to follow the lead or the road. 😜 They are a lot of road in front of me and I can choose all but it takes time. But time never be such a barrier to me. As long as I have will to learn everything can be done. 💪

Now, I am waiting for the interview session and please pray the best for me. ✌ Whatever the results are, the world doesn't end. I still can improve, in fact I can do lots more and make the person who will reject me regret. 😎 Just proved to them that you are the best. Yes, I am the best! 😊 Let's start this whole over again and it's never been too late to start a new thing unless you decide to stop then it's become late. 😉 Trust yourself as you have endured everything until now to be what you are now! 👩

Love,
The writer.

Dream On!

Dear readers,

Have you ever dream on something or you ever feel that this is not my life destiny! I were meant to be somebody else, something else or something different from the life I current;y lead on with. 😇 Well, I assumed everyone did it once unless you had achieved the highest hierarchy of your needs. 😂 Can't you think of somebody may proud to what he is now? 😒 Well, I can say probably "Donald Trump". Okay! Stop! No politician! No economy! Leave to the experienced one if we want to discuss about it. Well I don't want to be in that boring group! 😐

Let's talk about my story here. I am somebody who really love to dream. I like to be everything. Let' s say I watched "Naruto", I will think that my destiny should be a Ninja! Well, actually it is I envy the kind of life the character lived. I want to be that strong, not on the physical but the mentality too. This "Naruto" taught me a lots of thing that I would never learned in real world. The beauty of friendship. 😉 I may give up along the way but as long as I know there is someone who always stay beside me either family or friends, I will never stop. 😊 Believe in your way doesn't mean everyone has to accept what you will carry one. 😄 However, never stop on what you believe because someday people will start to believe in you and you know you have the potential to succeed. If I were to be one character of " Naruto", I want to be someone who has strong will of fire like Naruto, confidence as Sasuke, loyalty showed by Sakura, supporter as Sai and a bright leader shown by Kakashi. These people taught so much even they are not real. Their character live in your heart forever.😏

Hehe 😄 That is one of my kind of dream. But I do have dream to be loved and cared by someone. Hey! It is not wrong to dream because it is your own creativity to design! 😍 Sometimes how I wish I had a childhood friend who will always be with me. Well, if you asked me, I'll prefer boys. Haha 😇 Some manga or anime showed a female character have his childhood friends and probably one of them in love with each other. I want to be in those situations. It's sound selfish but being cared by somebody since we were small it is something you cannot trade with! 😎 You will be loved by the person and everyone envy with your existence and you can be proud of it. 👯 You will have a miserable life but trust me it will be part of beautiful memories that you will not ever regret. 😉 Oh! by the way did I mention I dreamt not only had one childhood friends but at least 3 or 4 are good and they were all guys! 😁

Above all, the most of all people ever dream on is to be rich. Money! World! Idol! 😁 I want to be one too! Somebody who has money but too much money. Until the time I don't know where to spend anymore because the money will never reduce. 😅 I want to buy everything I see! I want to give everyone in need! I want to make the world a better place! Well, I want to do everything I can with the money I had! 😎 A big house, somebody will fetch me and someone will patiently wait for me at home. I will have my own butler and be in love. Haha 😂 So much to do if I have a lot money and I can't imagine where I will go everyday with my private jet. 😍 Party everyday!

In the end, dream is not as per reality. You cannot be what man made character be but you can follow your dream and achieved what you design to be. Dream is a motivation that you create for yourself to be even better what you dream on to be. Part of you now have the "Naruto", you find out that is enough to have somebody you care and loved be by your-side always and your life is more than enough even you are not rich as long as you are happy. 😍 Sometimes, you may lose something to gain everything, however you will learn happiness exist in every way you take. 😄 Your life is your journey. You are the hero/heroin of your story, the rest are the supporting actor/actress. The other main character?! 👫 You can make decision who you want to choose because you are the director of your story. The ending you will decide before you start the story. 😃 In the middle, you will face hardship because the actor/actress left, but don't worry, you have so much to choose. The one who stayed is the one should be grateful too because they made your story until the end. 👫 Always be kind and have courage.

Love,
The writer.

Selfish! You Decide?!

Dear readers,

I'm having conflict right now. Oh gosh!! As a human why do we always been worried, over thinking, negativity and lose. ::>_<:: Teehee! It's probably me, myself only. Well, we don't have happy story everyday, sometimes we faced a bad day too. A very bad day. .·´¯`(>▂<)´¯`·.

Now, I'll share with you about my working life. As an accountant, your honesty, capabilities and professionalism always be a question by your boss. To gain their trust, it was very difficult. o>_<o~ I don't know is it me only or happen to others too. But I faced once situation before. =￣ω￣=

Every end of the month is the happiest moment for every salaryman in the world. I happened to prepare their salary everymonth, however this boss of mine always delayed the payment. I don't care if it's mine but there are people who waiting eagerly for their salary, to pay their liabilities, for their families and for any responsibilities. ~T_T~ But this people who supposed to pay them all delayed and go enjoyed himself somewhere with an annoyed reason which was stressed out because of business. -_-! Hey you! We knew you hold our pay cheque but remember we didn't work for the benefit of you but for the best of the company.
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To be honest, I love this company, the people who worked for it and the product we built together. However, with your lead, everything went wrong. (*>.<*)  You promised to be with us for anything but in the end you actually blamed us for everything.  ╯﹏╰  You know how sad it is when you ask us to start find a new job as to you finding one is like buying a candy in the market. %>_<% You should see each and every employee of yours when you said those words to them. How broke their heart, it is not easy to find another job nowadays. And it's really broke my heart. ~T_T~

Now I decided to leave the company but the real is I have decided to leave you. I am not quitting the job but I'm quitting the boss. (*^﹏^*) I love my job very much but the style you lead us, it will hurt the company even more. I am not saying I'm good but I will not stop learning and you have too. ~^O^~ Learn to respect, to receive opinion and the accept critique. We told you because we care. We won't tell you if we didn't care because we are a small team. We have to be with each other. Y(^_^)Y I hope one day if I ever meet you again, you will become someone who really did look like an enterpreneur. ＠(￣-￣)＠

We are leaving the company and you. To the company, thanks for be part of my learning and experienced. You taught me about how cruel the business world are. To my former boss, change and be someone that I can proud of. Someone that I can share the story about. Learn to respect other people and learn to receive opinion. Money can't buy you anything because money only bring you worry.(*^﹏^*) Until we meet again...Thank you. ~＠^_^＠~

Love,
The Writer.

How expensive they are?!

Dear Readers,

Have you ever thought how expensive the word 'I Love You" is? Some of you may and some of you may not. The word 'Love' is a magical word. A word that will turn someone life into happiness or miserable. I never thought before this word will change someone life. Being better or worse! It's like a word where a wizard or witch will use to hypnotize somebody before he/she put a potion into them. Well the result will depend on how good the wizard and witch experienced probably. 😉

So, this is my story about "love". I am a failure. My first love was the biggest failure ever! 😞 However, I tried to move on because my love gone for good. I mean he will has his happily ever after life. That is my prayer for him ever. No! No! He still alive. What he is doing now I probably kept it as a secret! 😉

A few months I lived without him. It was hard but I tried. We've been together almost 8 years and it's gone. Maybe we not meant to be together. You know the reason why it is so hard to move? The person you try to move on calling you back after a few months. Hmm! 😨 I hope for the best and suddenly it comes without news. I really don't know what to do. Either to feel happy or to feel very much happy. 😅

He did contact me back. And the worst is that, I was sick during that time. And it was really fired back. I cried. Really hard. Speechless. Happy? Yes! Shocked? Yes! Missed? Obviously! Love? Confuse! It was a mixed feeling. I cannot describe how happy I was and I couldn't show how much I missed him. It's just I couldn't describe through words. But everything changed! He is so closed yet he is so far to reach. Until now I am stuck. My decision is hanging. I am waiting. Am I stupid? Yes! 😭

Now, it become really hard for me to forget. I try everyday but it will come back. I try to move on but it stays. I am wondering, "Who am I to you?". A question that I asked myself. I did ask him but the answer was shocked! Do both of us still love each other? Do the destiny and fate will be on our side? Or do I have to create my own destiny with him? Or just it is fate that I will not belong to him? I couldn't answer any of these question. Yup! I will be biased to these question. And last I will said he was sent by God to me to test my heart.

To be hurt by the same person is the stupidest thing ever. But in love situation, people do become stupid even I am stupid. 😐 However, what kind of stupid you will become. Human has given a choice by God. Is it to do the same mistake and make it the same result or to learn from the mistake and take the action. The decision will differentiate one choice. To be hurt or to hurt or to be broke or to broken. Sometimes, you win but  actually you lose. Following the current flow? I didn't see the end and I hate when I don't know when it will end.

In the end, I just want him to be happy. There is nothing more to see the smile on your beloved one. With whom he was, as long as he is happy, I am sure now I will be happy too. To whom it may concern, I am okay. Live your life to the fullest. Have a very beautiful family and let me see your smile everyday. You may face difficulties, my prayer is always be with you. If you didn't have anybody and left with nothing, I am ready to help in any situation. You wrong is always forgiven. I love you. "You know where and how to find me."

If I ever find somebody, I will make sure he will take a good care of my heart. And you will always stay in the memories. Part of you will stay forever because you also one of my puzzle world. I learned so much from you. Meeting you was never be a mistake because I never regret that God sent you to me because there is no coincidence in this life. Until then...goodbye! 😊

Love,
The writer.