Almost A Year!

Dear Love,

It's been a while since I was writing to this blog. It had became forgotten for almost a year. 😰 Hmm~ what's make I start the writing again? Probably because I have nothing going on in my hand. 😓 ❕
Actually there is so much to say, so much to write and so much to think. But the minute my hand start to touch the keyboard, everything vanished in instance. I could not type or think about anything. A silence moment for myself!! But during this year I managed to reflect myself very well I think. I managed to see my potential, my forte and my credibility. I have tried lots of thing and regret many things and I am still stand up at the edge of world.
I've told people to keep trying harder, let's move on for life chapter and everything is going to be good. I kept telling people you can do it, you are born a star and you are destined to be a successor. 🌈 But the end, I was the one whose stumble, black-sheep and a failure. My past always be my biggest regret. Sometimes, the IF question keep haunting me. 😢 The question of past regret is always hanging never left. Yes, many said keep trying and you will find a new beginning. 😞 However, it has been two years and it come back and almost every day. Heaven knows how hard I've tried. Maybe I haven't tried hard enough. Or maybe I had never tried before. And maybe I never wanted to leave my past. 😔
And now, a holy month of Ramadan had arrived. 🌙 I have re-shuffle all my life goals and started to see my life on the other side. It has been very difficult and almost give up everyday. 😝 But slowly yet surely, I manage to achieve. Yes, very slow but everything is start to figure out. I manage to find a little happiness in the journey and confidence in between. Now, I am using my own pace and walk on my path without any worry. I didn't give any damn to other people and never see any competition. I have my own passion and I will strive to it. 💪
I think that would be enough for today. I'll keep you posted. Thank you! 😘

Love,
[アテｲカ]